Hey y'all!
I know it's been forever and three days since I have blogged. As always, things have been pretty busy from work to parenting to simply trying to get rest. I figured I should definitely blog today since it is a national holiday in all; MY 30th BIRTHDAY!!! Whoop-whoop! LOL. I remember the days when I thought being thirty was the equivalent of having one foot in the grave and the other on a banana peel, now I see it much differently. I'm so excited about my thirties and everything God has in store for me. In my twenties, I graduated from college, was blessed with the sweetest thing I've ever known (my baby girl), got a masters degree and graduated from medical school. As I look back over all of those things and the many blessings, struggles and triumphs I endured, I can't help but to thank God so much for all He's done for me thus far. If He did all of those things in just 10 years, I can only imagine what he's going to do now.
I am spending my birthday in OB receiving this year (our OB/GYN ER). At first, I was a little bummed about it, but now that I think about it I realize that this year, I have the opportunity to spend my birthday living my dream; taking care of patients as an actual physician. What a birthday present for me! Those of you who have spoken to be in depth about how my residency has been going now that I had kind of grown to despise OB receiving and was becoming quite jaded secondary to the environment. What I needed to realize is that there is someone else who would give anything to be in my place. While there are those patients who roll in via ambulance for a headache that they've had for 30 minutes and haven't taken medicine for then get pissed about the wait and start acting a fool and subsequently pissing me off, there are also those patient's who really need and appreciate the care they receive. The environment isn't ideal, but I should always consider it a blessing to even have the opportunity to be here in the capacity that I'm in. Sometimes, being appreciative in the midst of all of the other BS is quite difficult. I'm not perfect and it certainly gets to me. I stay in prayer about it constantly. But I hope to always remember the reason I chose medicine and, most of all, the reason God chose me to practice medicine.
I was contemplating what I want for my life from this point forward and changes that I want to make. There are too many things to name, but I always pray for peace, especially with my job and that God will make me slow to anger. Lately, I've been very quick to anger and to the point where I say I'm just "over it." I know that that's not me, but rather the frustration talking. Residency is such a frustrating thing at times with the situations and personalities that come along with it, but I don't want it to change me. I'm normally a very sweet person unless I am pushed and I've been pushed a lot lately. Those who know me know what happens next. So, pray for your girl! LOL. I am also praying for my husband. I've been waiting for him for a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time!! LOL. Feel free to pray with me! I also want to begin to take the time to actually ENJOY my life and take better care of myself. I've been on the go for years now chasing my dream. I know that there's still more work to do, but I don't want to allow any more of my life to pass me by. I no longer want to be the friend that my friends invite to go places and do things knowing in the back of their heads that I won't be able to come because I'm working, studying, etc. I don't want to look back over my life with any regret. I could go on and on about this, but I'll spare y'all!
Though I'll be spending this day at work, I will be celebrating in Miami with a few friends next month and I plan to have a phenomenal time! I CANNOT WAIT! As I said before, I'm so excited to see what God has in store for my 30s. I hope that you all will continue to travel with me on my journey and continue to pray for me as I go through residency. I appreciate all of your support!
Mahogany Pearl: "I'm not a kid, I'm a girl, and TODAY is my birthday!" - Shirley Temple
Love, your favorite MD,
Keisha B.
Happy Birthday! As you continue to LIVE each day, stop beating up on yourself that you are not the perfect being you would like to be == none of us that are truthful to ourselves, as you are to yourself are perfect. This blog allows you to express yourself, vent, and blow-off the steam; then it allows me to listen, hear you, feel you and know what more to include in my prayers that I continually pray for you. Yes, this is a period of life and a particular season for you; just continue to ALLOW God to not only lead and guide you but be in control to handle those things that just may be too much for you. Always know that I am here for YOU!
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