Hey everybody!
Happy belated Thanksgiving! I hope you all had a great one with wonderful time spent with friends and family. I got to see my Medstie, Rasheeda! It was the highlight of my holiday, for I have really missed her! I apologize that it has been a while since I've blogged. My internet at home hasn't worked for weeks which has had me extremely perturbed, as it inhibits me from working from home AND blogging. Since I last updated you, I completed my House Officer month (thank God!) and I started my Benign Gynecology rotation. I was a little apprehensive, as I always am when I begin a new rotation. Gynecology is a totally different beast than Obstetrics and all I had done in previous months was Obstetrics. So this was like venturing into the unknown, but I am really enjoying it. We have gotten a lot of time in the OR. So far I've assisted with and performed some of the following: Robotic Assisted Total Laparoscopic Hysterectomies, Total Abdominal Hysterectomies, Transvaginal Hysterectomies, Laparoscopic Bilateral Tubal Ligations, Endometrial Ablations, Dilation and Curettage, Polypectomies and Diagnostic Laparoscopies. We have clinic one day a week and operate 4 days a week. Needless to say, we've been very busy. The biggest joy of this rotation is that I can sleep a little later! LOL!
I have been reflecting about the past few months and I'm just amazed at how far I, and my fellow interns, have come. I know that we have so much more to learn, but it's astounding how much we've learned in just 5 months. Yes, we still screw up. But the things that terrified me during my first months, like managing a miscarriage in process, managing preeclampsia (and all of the other really high risk complications of pregnancy) and just being a doctor in general, don't terrify me as much anymore. I'm not saying that I know everything and don't feel like there's anything else to learn, because that's far from the truth. But I'm thankful that I have a little confidence that I am capable of taking care of those things without being completely petrified. I am thankful for those who have helped and continue to help me along this journey. The thing about medicine is that you are never done learning, as it is ever changing. Once you think you know everything, it's time for you to get a new job!
On another note, as all of my friends seem to be getting married and starting families (and as my little one constantly asks me when I'm gonna get married), I often wonder what my life's ambitions and aspirations have cost me. I've been so focused on school, and now residency, that I didn't really have an opportunity to go out and meet anyone and I DEFINITELY don't have the time now. The few good men I do know are either married or not interested in commitment at this point. Others are intimidated by my being a doctor, which I don't really get. It also doesn't help that I'm painfully shy. It takes a special person to deal with being with someone in residency. I love what I do and I am so thankful to God that He gave me a calling and allowed it to come to fruition, but I never would've thought that I'd still be single at this juncture in my life.
Everyone who really knows me knows that the three things I wanted to be in life were a wife, a mother and a doctor. My life's plan was to be happily married AND a doctor by 25, and be done having children by 29. I even put that in our senior prophecy book in high school! I know God laughs at our plans (I think he actually rolled on the floor laughing at mine), but I often wonder what He has planned for me concerning that last little piece of the puzzle. Though, according to my patients, I look like a teenager, I'll be 30 in 3 months (I still can't believe that!). I never would've dreamed that I wouldn't be married by now. My eggs are getting old and I'd like to use them before they turn into powdered eggs! All I can think is that my age will be a prenatal complication in 5 years! But, seriously, it kind of sucks being alone. I've always been a relationship kind of girl and I love being in love and being loved. I miss it. I know patience is a virtue, but I've been waiting a LOOOOONG time! Hopefully, He's working all of this out as I type. You're probably wondering how I think I even have time for this with residency, but others before me have done it. While I'm sure it takes work, I know it can be done.
Well, enough of that! That's the gist of what's been going on with work and in my life here lately. I pray that all is well with each of you. Thank you for your continued support, well wishes and prayers! I appreciate it more than you know. Until next time...
Your Favorite MD,
Keisha B.
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