The big day has finally come and gone and what a BIG day it was!! I've been waiting for this day for so long and it finally came! I woke up this morning an hour before my alarm went off and my anxiety level was quite high. Instead of just lying there, I decided to get my devotional out and spend some time with God. What better way to start my day!! Today's devotional spoke straight to my heart. It was SO appropriate for the beginning of this journey. I posted it below for y'all. After I read that, a sense of peace IMMEDIATELY came over me. I was still a little nervous, but I had peace about the situation. He has been preparing me for this for a long time. So, a lot of my anxiety turned to excitement.
As I walked up to that hospital at 6:30 AM, donning my long white coat and my pager, I felt like I was having some sort of out of body experience. I'm a REAL, LIVE DOCTOR! Like, in real life! I went up to the 2nd floor of Wiser Hospital for Women (where I'll be living for the next 4 years) for sign outs. As I walked through the door, I said, "Good Morning" and the nurses replied "Good Morning, doctor." I looked at them, smiled and actually giggled a little bit. They'd just called me doctor and I was BLUSHING! Dr. Bell still sounds strange to me and it took me a while to get used to hearing it all day today. It also took me a while to stop walking in the patient's room and saying, "Hi, I'm Keisha." I guess it's just going to take me a little while to adjust.
My hands were trembling when I got down there this morning. I could barely hold a pen to write, but as the day went on I got more and more confident in my ability and began to develop discernment so I could ask somebody when it got to things that were beyond my wealth of knowledge. I saw so many patients today and everything I was prepared for never came through the door. So, I learned A LOT today! I want to make it my business to learn something from as many patients as I can. They are the best teachers; better than any book you could ever read.
The nurses in OB Receiving were AWESOME!!! They took such good care of me today. I wouldn't have made it through the day had it not been for them and my upper level. They were so sweet to me even when I was screwing orders up and asking 100 million questions. For their presence and willingness to help me, I am thankful! My intern classmates also came down to check on me today and offer their assistance when they had free time. I appreciate that more than they'll ever know. Team work makes the dream work!! :-)
I left the hospital at 7:50 PM today and I was still excited; Tired, but excited. I am looking forward to the 1458 days ahead. I know I probably won't feel so exhilarated after every shift, but I do pray that I continue to have the same passion, if not greater, for this ministry that God has given me! I don't think I'll ever be able to thank Him enough. I'm forever grateful for this opportunity!! Thank you all for your support! I hope you all will continue to pray for me as you did when I was in medical school! :-)
Mahogany Pearl: When you feel down, look UP! :-)
Love, Your Favorite MD,
Keisha B
Congrats on a great first day Dr. Bell!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Allycia!! :-)
DeleteWOW == that devotional reading was just as you said, "on time and on target" == yes, I do continue to pray for you which is why I am thrilled to be receiving your blog/emails to keep me updated on what's going on so I can indeed be specific even with my prayers. I enjoy your Facebook comments as well.
ReplyDeleteLet's pray:
Lord, right now I pause first always giving thanks for all you done for me and Keisha; your love, grace and mercy that you continue to bless us with even without our asking and even in those times when we may really not deserve it. I ask that you daily shower Keisha with a special anointing of power of remembrance (that which she's studied) and patience (understanding that she will never know it all and will always need others), as well as maintain a fence of protection around her to guard her away from satanic powers and influences that will seek to destroy and damage her spirit which then may cause her to question and wonder over her own opinions or recommendations to those seeking her guidance. Bless her heart to always be eager to serve you as she serves others. We praise you for being the sovereign God that you are and for this we shall forever give to you the glory. This prayer rendered in the name of your son Jesus who died that we might have the access and right to eternal life. AMEN!!!
God bless you Dr. Bell!!!
Love you,
Soror Porter
(I sent this reply initially through email but want it posted here so you can review with the blog.)